[ he could answer that, but he doubts that she'd really like the answer. there are a million other things that mattered, but Ren's own drive to get stronger came from a different place. Maruki had told him it was the way that he reconciled his place in his own reality.
it seemed like Catra's walls became harder to break, and that was the part of her that got stronger. ]
You don't seem happy.
[ and Adora keeps coming up in his head, dragging herself to help others. ]
[ A younger Catra might have denied it. Yelled about how of course she's happy, leading the Horde. About how if she isn't happy, it's everyone else's fault.
But no. Catra knows enough now to be able to admit that she's not just unhappy-- she's miserable. That leading the Horde doesn't bring her happiness. That the extent of her anger and misery is at least partially etched onto her whole being, and denying it would only make her look stupid. The only problem of course is admitting it out loud to others. Looking weak and pitiful. So she takes a different tack. ]
... Tch. So what? Do I have to be happy all the time?
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Date: 2020-09-12 02:59 pm (UTC)What else matters?
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Date: 2020-09-12 03:10 pm (UTC)it seemed like Catra's walls became harder to break, and that was the part of her that got stronger. ]
You don't seem happy.
[ and Adora keeps coming up in his head, dragging herself to help others. ]
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Date: 2020-09-12 03:20 pm (UTC)But no. Catra knows enough now to be able to admit that she's not just unhappy-- she's miserable. That leading the Horde doesn't bring her happiness. That the extent of her anger and misery is at least partially etched onto her whole being, and denying it would only make her look stupid. The only problem of course is admitting it out loud to others. Looking weak and pitiful. So she takes a different tack. ]
... Tch. So what? Do I have to be happy all the time?
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Date: 2020-09-13 12:14 am (UTC)It sounds like you got what you wanted, I thought you'd be happier.
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Date: 2020-09-13 12:16 am (UTC)... Yeah. Me too.
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Date: 2020-09-16 04:19 pm (UTC)What are you going to do here now that you're back?