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[purrsistence]

[ Catra actually goes a bit pink in the face, but she turns her face away from Glimmer instantly as if there's something else interesting to look at on the horizon, so as not to show it. She tries to keep her voice light and airy and joking, as if this is still just normal banter, but it's not quite right. ]

Well-- I mean, yeah, duh. It's not surprising she'd think people would fall in love with me. I'm awesome! Adora knows that!

But you 'n' me? I mean. I'm not exactly your type, am I? You're more a-- bare midriffs and best friends kinda girl, ha.

[sparklequeen]

[ Glimmer reaches over to shove at Catra again. That reply has her pink in the cheeks, too! ]

How did both of you just call me out like that?! Ugh, am I that obvious?

And I mean you're okay? I like girls too but there was always the war and stuff. I've never had a chance to actually know you, so it's not like I can really say.

[ Smirk. Time to go on the offensive. ]

You probably know alllllll about the best friends thing though, huh?

[purrsistence]

[ Catra starts and her face whips back to look at Glimmer, bright red now. ]

Wait, what? What are you talking about?!

[sparklequeen]

Pfft, come on.

[ Glimmer leans forwards against the railing again, eyes on Catra. ]

You are so into Adora.

[purrsistence]

What-- that's--! [ Catra's hair floofs out like an angry cat. ]

It's not like that. We're just friends!

Maybe-- maybe it was gonna be, but that was a long time ago! All right?! Geez.

[sparklequeen]

I mean...

[ Glimmer looks away for a moment. She knows what's going on but... being the one to spill that wouldn't be right. ]

You won't know unless you try.

[purrsistence]

[ Catra's reply comes out a little more snappish than she intends it to-- ]

What, like I haven't tried?

[sparklequeen]

I mean trying saying something like "Hey, Adora. I want to be more than friends with you."

[ She does a passable imitation of Catra's tone for a moment. ]

Have you actually just said it?

[purrsistence]

[ Catra goes a very deep shade of red, her expression horrified ]

Gross! I wouldn't say it like that!

A-And anyway, it's not like Adora doesn't know!

[sparklequeen]

It's just an example.

[ Glimmer stares over at Catra. She can't help herself, she breaks into breathless laughter and flops back onto the fire escape. This is too funny. SHe laughs for a solid few seconds before she has to catch her breath. Gasping, she tries to sit back up. ]

If you haven't told her, how do you know that she knows?

1/2

[purrsistence]

I mean. We grew up together. We know everything about each other. There's no way that she... doesn't...

[purrsistence]

...

[ You can almost see the lightbulb come on in Catra's brain as she realizes, and then just slowly puts her face in her hands. ]

She doesn't know, does she.

[sparklequeen]

Uh, not that I meant to talk to you about this tonight...

[ Glimmer's cheeks get a little pinker. She looks over at Catra, trying to decide what to say. Or maybe just how to say it. ]

But she might think that you could never feel that way about her. As a hypothetical, maybe that's what she's thinking? I mean, she did come over to my place crying after uh, you know... that whole conversation you two had about promises.

[purrsistence]

[ Voice muffled, with her face still buried in her hands-- ]

How did I manage to completely forget that Adora is an idiot...

[sparklequeen]

Uh, probably because you love her? Also because sometimes she's not an idiot, about like, giving other people advice about people they like. Or about planning stuff.

[ Snort. ]

She made a whole plan of attack for Princess Prom.

[purrsistence]

[ Catra looks up and gives a snort at that, grinning. ]

Yeah, a plan that I managed to anticipate before you guys had even gotten there.

[sparklequeen]

We didn't know you were coming. This was just her plan to like, go to the party and not mess up saying hello to Princess Frosta.

[ Glimmer rolls her eyes. ]

And I was just, completely losing my mind because Bow went as Perfuma's plus one and I was stupid jealous because I thought I was about to lose my best friend, so I was just useless...

[purrsistence]

Pfft. Yeah, I gotta admit, I didn't see that one coming.

Like either of you could ever be separated. Aren't you like attached at the hip or something?

[sparklequeen]

He's been my best friend since I was kid. He was my only friend for a long time, too. Until I met Adora, actually.

[ She'd thought it might be weird to be open about this with Catra, but it feels strangely simple. ]

I did some stuff that hurt him and he's not here, so I don't know when I'll be able to make it up to him.

[ She sighs, leans her head forward again. Her voice is muffled by her arms. ]

And I'm kind of in love with him which makes that part even worse.

[purrsistence]

... Yeah.

[ For a minute, it seems like that's all she's going to say. Just an acknowledgment. Then-- ]

... Sometimes you can't. Make it up, I mean.

[sparklequeen]

[ Glimmer's knees draw up towards her chest, then her head drops forward onto them. She's quiet for a moment in return. ]

Yeah. I know.

[ She doesn't know what else to say because the thought of Bow never forgiving her makes her heart want to drop into her stomach and stay there forever. ]

I just have to tell him I'm sorry and then... give him the space he needs, I guess.